Well, what can I say. I don't use this thing much. What happened is I couldn't decide between starting a blog or a private journal, so I made both at about the same time thinking I would either use whichever seemed more appropriate whenever I felt like writing something, or cross-post the occasional journal entry to the blog. I now use the journal pretty much exclusively and I'm not sure what to do with the blog. It's not even that I'm uncomfortable presenting "personal" topics on an ostensibly public platform (I'm perhaps dangerously unbothered by the idea), but rather it just seems incorrect to do so. Or maybe unnecessary is the better word.

Well, let's do something. At this particular point in my life, I spend most of my time pacing back and forth, sitting still and thinking, wasting time in vague, random ways, drawing (or at least thinking about it). I'm barely playing video games, I never go for walks anymore, I'm not doing yoga at all. Other "tests of responsibility and motivation" are not happening either. Sleep is neither great nor terrible.

This is a weird place to be. A lot has been stripped away, and yet, I draw. I set my sights on that one specific thing and it appears to finally be happening. If I can do to it what I've done to games in the past, maybe something good can come of it. As for my total inability to focus on more than exactly one thing at a time, it's not like it's anything new. If it's going to be a lifelong curse I'm prepared to accept that. After all the whole point in shifting the focus to drawing is to try to "work with" this problem.

As for posting drawings here, I just feel no reason to do it at the moment, but there's a fair chance I eventually will. Maybe when I reach a skill level I deem satisfactory.